In My Dreams, I Feel You – Afterthoughts
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Genre: Personal Review
Rating: K
Inspiration: In My Dreams, I Feel You (FanFiction)
Started: November 5, 2008
Completed: November 5, 2008
Words: 838
*sigh*
One down, a bagillion-gigillion more to go!
I sooooo missed the adrenaline rush that I feel when I start on a new story. True I had to rack my brains for a plot and I get stumped after a paragraph or two. But once I start “feeling” my story, the words just pour out (I can’t specifically say my mouth, or hands or mind; coz the first one is not applicable, whereas the last 2 just look weird if you become literal about it).
I was scared posting my first story on a certain website (I’m not saying which one!). I’m not talking about my blog. I mean a blog is a different thing I guess. It’s my personal page and it’s either people visit you or not. It’s not like your page is always searchable.
I really felt that I missed out on a lot of things when I had to set aside any form of serious writing. True I write everyday. I compose e-mails, workflows, essays, etc. But, let’s be realistic; those were not the kind of pieces that would actually challenge me – let alone satisfy me.
The story I posted here took me around 6 hours to write. That includes 2 or 3 episode researches, and the first and second proofreading. I think I proofread it 4 times, so my grammar should be just about fine.
Anyway I do hope that at least some (I say some, I understand not everyone would like it) of the people who have read my story end up appreciating it; or at least an aspect of it (i.e. writing style, plot, characterization, theme, etc.).
I have some more thoughts about other stuff but I think I’ll do a different post about them.
As to my personal review of my work:
I honestly don’t think this is the best one I’ve written. But I like it. Hell yeah. What kind of writer am I if I don’t like my own work? Besides, I’m not being paid for it so it’s not like I’ll be writing something I wasn’t interested in. I think the story went on too long, though. It took 9 pages on Word on an 11px Georgia, and totalled more than 4000 words! There weren’t supposed to be any “arcs” but I can’t post the whole thing in one go; people would’ve been scared by the sheer length to want to read it.
As to the plot, it wasn’t supposed to be like that. Well it is, but I had to remove a lot of parts since I might end up doubling the number of pages if I insist on putting all the ideas I wanted in one story. I also think that it would be a tiring read; having to go back and forth too many times between present and past (flashbacks). I initially had another idea on how to do the flashback but it’s not very conducive when you use it in a story. It would’ve been more fitting if it’s a movie.
I didn’t like the ending too much because, well, for one thing it wasn’t supposed to end up that way. I was supposed to end it with Ryoma wearing the shirt and crying himself to sleep. But I realized that might give the impression that he and Kunimitsu broke up when the latter went to Germany. Worse, it might give some people the idea that after making love with Ryoma, Kunimitsu just up and left him (seeming like he just used Ryoma’s body or something). Well I love this pair too much to do that to them so I had to tweak the last part to show that they actually still communicate with each other. Ryoma just misses him too much is all.
Which leads me to my after-dilemma which is: did I make it too dramatic for such a simple plot? I don’t want to mislead my readers, but that’s just the way I write (meaning, misleadingly?! hahaha…). And I don’t think you can be too sappy when you’re missing someone you love, do you? When my ex-boyfriend left for vacation I was near tears every time I hear a “missing you” song on the radio. And when I pass by somebody who would have almost the same scent as him I can’t help doing a double take (even when I knew he was miles away). So I really don’t think that there’s too much drama. But then again: if you’re practical, logical and not into mushy stuffs; then you most likely would puke at the thought.
So there, those are my afterthoughts. Feel free to leave me your comments and a simple “hi” in my shoutbox would surely perk me up.
Again, bearing in mind what I mentioned in my warnings and disclaimer page: Please be nice. No flames and don’t damn me to hell either just because you think I write poorly. I’m not a professional and I only write for the sheer enjoyment of being able to put down my thoughts into words.
